Fat = Lazy?

I’m going to deviate a little bit from the usual light hearted stories about my life, and be a bit more serious this time. I want to talk about one of the things I’ve found sucks the most about being overweight. I’m sure other people who are overweight will disagree and have other things that suck more, and that’s fine, everyone’s experience is different. But I think the thing that sucks the most for me are the looks.

You can eat healthily all month, you can carefully calorie count and exercise and do everything you’re “supposed to”, and maybe you allow yourself one treat every once in a while. Something sweet, or a burger from that place you’re craving, or a bag of crisps. But the moment you get that in your hand, it’s almost a guarantee at least one person will look at you as if to say: “Aha, just another fat and lazy person stuffing their face.” Worse, it’s often from other people who are eating the same thing you are, but because you’re overweight, you’re no longer entitled to it.

It hurts, and I sometimes feel like shouting out that I usually eat well and exercise, I want to tell them that I’ve lost 4 lbs this month, but I can’t. And I don’t think I should have to, either. Nobody judges someone of average weight for eating a cookie, so why is it acceptable to throw judgemental and disgusted looks at me for the same thing. One example of this that hurt the most was when I complained to a server at KFC that the drink he’d given me was regular pepsi instead of diet pepsi, and he looked at me in scorn and said: “You’re not fooling anyone with a diet drink.”

Excuse you, motherfucker?

Why is it any of his business which drink I choose to drink? Whether it’s regular, diet, or bloody champagne? I happen to drink diet because I don’t like the taste of regular, it’s too syrupy and thick for me to enjoy, not for any other reason than that, but I was so ashamed at what he said that I scuttled back to my seat red-faced and just didn’t have a drink. People look at you in the street and assume you’re lazy or all you eat is crap because you’re overweight, and it’s the thing that sucks the most for me.

So if you see someone in the street, don’t assume based on their size. Maybe that overweight person is overweight medically, or is mid-losing weight, or that extremely thin girl eats like a horse and just can’t seem to gain weight. Please make these preconceptions a thing of the past, because weight loss is a long and hard enough journey without all of that added to it.

Anyway, rant over, sorry about that, guys.

Weekly weigh in

Weight: 274.4

Waist: 125cm

Bust: 126cm

Hips: 134cm

So a loss all round this week, weight and measurements. I’ve been swimming a lot more, so I’m pretty happy with myself in that regard.